Liz Welch Full Testimony

 

Hi Dennis and Melanie
Thank you so much for a fantastic conference weekend at Retford Baptist Church.
It was awesome to see God at work in so many lives in so many ways.
Here is my little testimony as given at the final Sunday night meeting.
During the conference the subject of anger was touched upon. This rang bells with me and - for the umpteenth time - I talked to God about it. I felt that God was saying that there was some connection with 'rule keeping' This puzzled me somewhat, so the next day, when I returned to the subject, I prayed that dangerous prayer that I had learned during the weekend...."more light God" (continued)
Instantly a memory surfaced of myself at about 9 years of age being tremendously hurt and upset that my little brothers were being allowed to stay up later than me. (A big issue at that age!!) I recognised that what this memory tapped into and opened up for me was that I had set so much store by 'fairness' and 'keeping the rules' because it seemed to be the only way that I could get a) attention b) favour and c) understand who I was and how I fitted in. This had led to a strong perfectionist streak that I have actually only recognised relatively recently. If rules are kept perfectly then I get to know who I am and I get to be seen to be worth something. Wow, what a revelation it was to me. So many months of struggling with how to deal with this anger, and all I really had to do was confess and repent to Father that I had been putting security and hope in a lie and to ask Him to lead me into grace and mercy and freedom from the need for me and all those around me to 'keep the rules' And I believe that God has done just that.
Love and God Bless
Liz

 

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